Drowning

I don't show my deepest wounds but I can't hide the blood that I've lost. I don't show my fears but I can't hold my legs of trembling, I can't control my breath, I can't even talk.
I've lost so much. It hurts too much. I am burning with the pain, I am drowning in the emptiness.
Sometimes I wanna die, other times I smile and say "I am fine".