Drowning

I don't show my deepest wounds but I can't hide the blood that I've lost. I don't show my fears but I can't hold my legs of trembling, I can't control my breath, I can't even talk.
I've lost so much. It hurts too much. I am burning with the pain, I am drowning in the emptiness.
Sometimes I wanna die, other times I smile and say "I am fine".

With you

How many times I told my secrets to the wind? Lost them away with you. With you I lost my way to you . Give me some time, let me breathe, let me find myself in you. It is so unclear when you start to fear youself, for me because of you.

Living hell

If you need me,

Please let me know.
I am sorry to tell, 

I love you so.
I am falling, falling even harder.
It's cutting even deepper.

Looking in your eyes,
It's like touching a thousand skies
When I am living a living hell.

Avoid

Sometimes we fell in love,
We can't talk or move a finger
when we are close to the person we love.
It's hard to breathe.
It's hard to think
When you are so confused
When you don't know if that person feel the same as you do.
But you stay and see him from far away.
He smile to you and you don't know the meaning.
When you are so close and looking his eyes,
So electric, so magnetic.
So difficult to understand if you really are  meant to each other.
But to avoid the pain, the hurt, the illusion you stay quiet and sometimes,
when we are not strong enough to try, we just stay and watch he flying away.